Nevermind!
10February 26, 2013 by bustedoven
This morning I laid in bed for a few minutes after I woke up. I was really enjoying the possibility that I might be pregnant, and I knew that if I took my temperature and it was way down that feeling would be over.
So I took a couple minutes to enjoy being hopeful and imagining how it would feel to see my first ever positive pregnancy test.
And then I took my temperature. And it had PLUMMETED. And then I took a pregnancy test. And it was stark white negative.
I’m disappointed, of course, because I know for sure now that my period is right around the corner, maybe today, maybe tomorrow, maybe because of the medication it will be Thursday.
And if the cycle after you have an HSG is your best shot at getting pregnant, and even our best shot didn’t work, well… maybe my oven’s more busted than I realized. Maybe I have that thing that Charlotte had on Sex and the City where I’m attacking my husband’s sperm??!? Oh god, do I have a militant vagina??!
So, to cheer myself up, I’ve been making a list in my head of the pros of this cycle not working out…
- Wine! There will be wine.
- I can keep my appointment for next Saturday to get my hair dyed. Yay, no roots!
- I was nervous about telling my friend who just lost her pregnancy that I was pregnant. It was going to be awful timing.
- I found out recently that you’re not really supposed to eat bacon while pregnant? WTF?! I am going on an all-bacon diet for the next week, at least.
- The 25-pack of pregnancy tests I just cracked into won’t go to waste.
- If I come across a trampoline, I can jump on it all I want.
So sorry.
But I love the positivity of your list!
I did want to add though that my hairdresser said that it’s totally okay to dye your hair while you’re pregnant! I made sure to ask when we started TTC because yeah, roots and I are not good friends. He said as long as the place is well ventilated and you’re using professional products (as salons do), it’s safe.
Amanda, that is great news about dye being okay. I’ll do whatever it takes to make a baby, but it’s nice to know I don’t have to look awful doing it.
and don’t forget: sushi, cheese and a perm!!!
But chop chop … in a few days you need to have a plan for this cycle! this is not a sprint is a marathon !
TTC sucks! but we’ll all get there, baby dust to you.
Oh, a perm, how could I forget that, haha! TTC does suck, but at least it won’t be forever, you’re right!
ohhh, sonofabitch. i’m sorry this first go is a bust. funny thing. i was actually laying in bed this morning thinking of you, because i knew you were only a day behind me and that meant that today was your day. i wish we could get together to enjoy a few of the things from you list. can you imagine us on a trampoline, getting our hair did, drinking wine, and eating bacon (in my case, it would have to be the lame bacon alternative, but whatever)? because i can. and it sounds lovely.
Awww, girl, I think about you all the time and watch your blog like a hawk for updates! And I feel like we would have so much fun doing all of those things. I’m so happy to have you as my TTC buddy!
Haha, believe it or not, I actually had to turn down a recent invite to a trampoline party! What are the chances that a freakin’ 33-year-old decides to go trampolining for her birthday, eh? Anyway, listen, you’re at the start of a new cycle, which means new cause for hope (and also wine), and I think you’ve got a positive attitude toward this, which is so important. I personally think all that crap about HSGs leading to BFPs is a load of hooey… so don’t put too much stock in that. Same goes for your body “attacking” your hubby’s sperm — very unlikely. In almost all cases, it’s all about the egg, so you just need to catch a good one.
Hang in there!
REAL TALK! I like it. Thanks, girl.
Trampolining is totally having a moment right now, it’s so weird. Next thing you know, we will all be going to Pogo Ball parties (remember those??!).
Ohhh wine. That was SO my way of coping with the dreaded period. Yep. Enjoy it for me. Also, trampoline…hahaha.
A good friend of mine is also TTC and about a day behind me. We have a happy hour planned for tonight to commiserate. Viva la vino!